In a long post published on his Instagram account, Nick Kyrgios recounted the very difficult times he went through several years ago. Accompanied by a photo of him with a helmet screwed on his head, cell phone in his hand and looking away, the Australian delivers a raw testimony. “That was me three years ago at the Australian Openhe writes in the preamble. Most people will think I was mentally fine and enjoying my life…it was one of my darkest times. »
The 137th in the world then explains that he had “suicidal thoughts”. In this seemingly innocuous photo, he invites us to look at his right arm: “You can see traces of self-harm. » The player recounts the state of distress in which he found himself. “I was literally struggling to get out of bed, let alone performing in front of millions of people. I was alone, depressed, negative, abusing alcohol and drugs, pushing away my family and friends. I felt like I couldn’t talk to or trust anyone, because I didn’t open up, I refused to lean on my loved ones. »
“If you feel like you can’t talk to anyone, I’m here”
This is not the first time that Kyrgios has indulged in depressive episodes. “I remember waking up in Shanghai a year earlier [en 2019 donc], it was 4 p.m. and I was still in bed with the curtains closed. I didn’t want to see the light of day”, he told an Australian newspaper two years ago. But the winner of the Australian Open in doubles had never gone so far in his confidences.
In his post of February 24, he explains that, three years later, he feels much better. “I’m proud to say I’ve totally changed and have a completely different outlook, I don’t take a moment for granted. »
He also encourages everyone to talk about these negative moments by evoking the difficulty in confiding. “I know opening up can make you feel weak or scared. I’m telling you now, it’s okay, you’re not alone. […] If you feel like you can’t talk to anyone, I’m here.
